thursday 21st october

its been such a long time and like life hasnt been good. there was so much homework and then a whole lot of drama... ugh i feel so sad and all now ughh and my best friend isn doing well wither. sigh i feel bad for him i wanna help him so much but i dont know how to help. ughhhh i hate life its so annoying... i cant wait till i meet with god. even happiness fades away. joy is the only thing that makes you happy for life. love might be both most of the time it is happiness that u feel when someone says i love u. i might have found some form of joy but then again im not really sure. life is full of annoying obstacles that are so hard to get over. they are like towering over u and u need to slowly get to the top and over the obstacle. everyone in the worlds needs friends and they need people who care for them. it might not seem like much but we all need people around to go to for help and to lean on them. now i dont even know if life is even worth living for. people around me are so in love and they are all happy and all. i dont see how they can enjoy life so much and i alrdy try and see the bright side of things. but i keep telling myself that life will get better.

highlight of the day: talking to my telepathic twin. i know not very happy but its the best ting of the day...

anyways yea sad life now and migh be another long wait till the next post...

HELLOOOO PEOPLE! haha 5th october 2010

blehhh.... another month has passed and im like so bored.... the igcse exams are getting closer and closer.... sighs .... im not liking this. and i had to choose my subjects inm taking for igcse and hand it up last monday so for the exams, im taking math, A math, BLEHHHH chinese, physics bio and chem (co-science) and like english( lit) and then there is.... econs and ART ART ART!!! :D whoohoo1 i love art! ohh ya! there is also RME adn PE! i alo=most forgot.... ughhh... OHHHH yesterday was so funny!wehad an RME presentation adn then my gruop with marcus, alex and joshua, we were like totally un prepared but like joshua was (as always) with notes and all and then so we had to make stuff up adn i didnt even know whut the Berlin Wall was and then so i just thought of putting it into context and it turned out to be really great! like the topic was reagonal conflict and then we said Germany was split into two and then i said that if u can imagine ur brother or sister studying in university across the country and they cant come home.... not only that but there is a wall that blocks the from seeing one another. that makes them realy sad and homesick! haha and then Joshua interupted me :p pishhhh! haha anywho... it was a really good presentation that was like totally made up :p sighs.... hmmm then there was a science test and nowadays the amount of hw we get is like SOOOOOOOO MUCH! i had like a 1500 word essay for geog, an english character study, chinese ting xie, and math exercise and science newspaper and history news article and then i still have an end of term english essay about MACBETH.... I mean seriously who cares about macbeth?its a story adn like ur not gonna need it in the future...... i realy hate macbeth cus it is like so hard to understand and all and there is still and english presentation on monday and ERNEST, SAMANTHA AND ROHAN don wanna do any of the work! its so annoying adn i really wanna get good marks..... im like so super sad these days and im also not talking to my GOD PARENTS these days.... its like the world is slowly ending and its closing down on me.... im listening to the songs 'just the way yu are' and 'superman' (: my favourite song (: